things aren’t looking up for me this week. didn’t get the job. and joa and i sometimes argue about the past that i cannot let go. but sometimes, it’s just my insecurity.

i wonder when will things look up for me. i feel discouraged, despondent, and that God has put me on hold again. i’ve been crying out to Him a lot and J thinks i’m just spoilt when i only seek Him when i need Him. and he’s prob spot on. but i sometimes digress. hadn’t i stayed in faith, continued to believe despite the thousand and one rejections and disappointments? hadn’t i taken everything in my stride, chin up and continued to press on?

i need a miracle desperately.

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